Have you ever felt lonely and frustrated but you don't really know why? I have, I hate when it happens. It makes me feel like something is wrong with me. Like I'm all dried up inside when I should be enjoying each moment that is full of life. I sit there and feel angry and confused and lash out at the people closest to me. After a few minutes or hours or days of feeling alone, I have to remind myself that it's ok to feel that way. Everyone feels it in some point in their life. I'm not saying that it is a good thing to feel, but it's not wierd.
When I start feeling this way it is usually because I have taken it upon myself to walk my own life. I forget that God is in control and I try to take that control away from him. I see a pattern: I stop relying on God for everything and begin to rely on myself, that is when everything fails miserably. I simply cannot handle life on my own. Sure, I think I can handle at least the good stuff, but when it gets into the nitty gritty details... I just fail.
I want to encourage you through this post. When you start feeling like a withering autumn leaf, look to God for comfort. He will never deny you water. Give the control back to Him, it is so much easier when someone else is handling the situation.
I found that this song conveys the exact feeling of my frustrations. I hope that it will speak to you in some way and give you some hope as well.